Thursday, September 1, 2011

September!!

Can summer really be coming to an end?   I'm happy to see autumn right around the corner, September and October are two of my favorite months in the mountains.  Soon comes the holiday season.  Time is going so quickly and it's been an amazing year.  Many awakenings, many new art techniques tried, happiness and sadness, many new, lifelong friends made and some friends lost. I suppose that's a normal year for all of us.  Life is full of ups and downs every day.  Surprises and disappointments.  Ying and Yang.    Friendship has been heavy on my heart and mind the past couple of weeks and it remains heavy.  When I say heavy it doesn't mean all bad...just heavy.  Most of you know that I'm losing a life long friend, the sister I never had, my confidant, someone that made me laugh, someone that would tell me if I was wrong and give me tons of  kudos when they were deserved or needed, someone that I knew loved me.  And I was the same kind of friend right back.  I feel that today will be the day her suffering ends, I might be wrong but that isn't what my heart tells me.   Losing Jo has made me think a lot about people that I love and also of people that love me.  People that love me in spite of all of my many, many flaws...people that accept me, don't judge me, don't beat me up over every mistake I've made my entire life!!   I've been blessed to have several friends like that but most have taken that final journey way too young and way too soon.  I know that Jo will have a wonderful journey and will make heaven a happier place.  Sometimes the circle of life is just too short!!   XOXOX to Jo...I'll see you on the other side!  Happy Trails to YOU....  
I had to come back and post something else that's very important..at least to me it is.   But losing Jo and thinking about my friends and some of the wonderful friendships that I have now has made me so grateful.  I'm so thankful for the people that do love me, for the people that  do want to spend time with me, and do forgive me my many flaws, errors in judgement and just plain old screw ups!  And I've made plenty, yes, I sure have.  I'm thankful for my good health and for every beautiful day I have to enjoy. And  I'm sure happy that I have Bob and Daisy in my life.  As I've said before this year, in so many ways, has been a year of retrospection.   Life is a paradox, isn't it!!  On one hand I'm so sad but on the other I'm so thankful.  Thankful for all that I have, thankful for all that I have had in my lifetime and thankful for all of the wonderful people that have passed through my life...and the other people that have passed through..you know, those not so nice ones...PFFFFT to you!    


Make a Happy Day, A Happy Month and most of all A Happy Life.  That's my wish for all of you.   XOXOXO

12 comments:

Michele Emma said...

Oh, Phyllis, so sorry. You are both so blessed to have known and loved each other.

joanne said...

such a complex thing the way joys and sorrows live together for all of us in this life, isn't it?... this is a beautifully written post of friendship and gratitude... of reflection and depth of love.

placing a virtual arm around you today and wishing it could be an in person hug...

sending my love and comfort across the miles.

sooz weissberg said...

Awww, Pete !! I got a lump in my throat as I read your post. I don't know everything goin' on in your life, but I've been picking up clues. But the one thing I pick up from you that's stronger than anything else, is your spirit and your gentle love. You're a joy, Miz Pete. I heart you. : ]

carlanda brown williamson said...

phyl. this is a great post. i too wish i was there to give you a big hug. i am glad i met you this year. you have my life happier. i am so sorry about jo, but so happy that you two had such a history and great love and friendship. xoxo c

Petie said...

Thank you so much everybody. Hugs to all of you!

Kristin said...

Your tears are my tears...life can be so unfair but still we muddle through...beautiful post Petie,it bought tears to my eyes...
Im glad to have met you...
Hugs xoxo

Lyn said...

Keep hold of those beautiful memories Phyl...smile when you remember the funny times you spent together....shed a tear when you need to....and know that your wonderful friend will continue to be a wonderful friend to all those who meet her on her next journey. You are in my thoughts and I'm so happy we became friends this year. xo

Petie said...

Thanks Kris and Livvie...I'm so glad to have met all you both too! Losing Jo, and seeing her suffer for such a long time just got me thinking about people, friends, not such good friends, life in general... And how blessed I am. It's so easy to take small things for granted and I don't want to do that! XOXO

Palma said...

So sorry to hear about you losing your soul sister. I can't imagine there being anything worse that watching someone go like that.
I'll raise a glass to many more happy days to come and raising a glass to Jo.
xxx

Seren said...

Aww honey, I am so sorry you have gone through this. It's so hard when a part of you seems to not be there anymore. One thing I am learning is that the part of me I thought was gone is still there. It's just in a new and different way.
Like you I am trying to celebrate the blessings I have and the ones that are coming.

I'm so glad to have met you, I admire your love of life, talent and your love of family.
Jo is always with you, listening, guiding, encouraging you. You just have to feel it.

I hope that made some kind of sense.

Petie said...

Thanks so much to all of you for your kindness! I really do appreciate it. I know that Jo is still with me but I sure do miss her. It's hard to lose someone when you've been friends for so long that you can't remember them not being there. But now I have so many wonderful and supportive friends and that helps so much!! xoxo
And Sere, yes it makes perfect sense. Thank you so much.

Petie said...

Re-reading my blog....such memories. maybe I'll revive this one of these days.